Wednesday, December 12, 2012


It has been 10 years since you left this world and you are always in my heart. It was a cold morning on December 12, 2002, when I received the news that you departed from this world. I felt the world crumbling and falling apart. I keep telling myself that this is not true because we already lost Dad and now we lost our Mom ..? God, are you joking..? this cannot be true...there is some mistake here. Mom had been in the hospital for 12 days in a coma. The doctor said, there is nothing they can do to help her... not even if they did surgery.

I was here in the States for 2 years, since I heard you had a stroke and were in the hospital. Part of me just wanted to fly back to see you on the other side of the world, just to be there with you. Part of me said "you have to stay here because if something happens to Mom your brothers need you to support them financially". So, I decided to stay in the States because if I go back, there is only a 50/50 chance for me to come back because of my visa. I didn't want to take that chance. Don't ask me how hard it was, but sometimes in this life we are facing 2 choices that are really hard.

I kept praying and asking GOD "please help my Mom and give her more time in this world because we still need her". Once again, God said His will is not my will. His ways is not my ways.

There are a lot things that have happened in this past 10 years... "Mom, I wish you were here" see and be part of those stories but I know you are in a better place now with Jesus. I love you Mom and always will.

Mom you will always be part of me. You are the best mom. I wish God gave you more time, but I know you are happy with Jesus.... until we meet again MoM  !

Psalms 77:2 In the day of my trouble I seek the Lord; in the night my hand is stretched out without wearying; my soul refuses to be comforted.

Isaiah 41:10 fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand

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